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i’m tired. i’m scared. denying it doesnt change the truth. i wish i could be strong… or atleast fake it…MANAGE PAIN, face it… or just push through it. IGNORE IT! "painful, doubt and a little understanding"…it’s awful to be grown ups but the carousel never stops from turning and u cant get out… it’s hard… it’s painful…

there are no solutions, no easy answers. u just breathe deep and wait for the pain go away… the PAIN gets u when u least expect. it’s way below d belt. pain, you just have to fight it bec. you can control it and life makes more.

they say wat u dont know wont hurt you but the truth is… NOT KNOWING IS THE WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD! it’s not fair either way…

diverting is so funny! u’ll enjoy it + u lose more fats… if ur sad and wana take some rest (wat i mean "ur brain to rest") take time and try some sports. playing with a shuttlecock (badminton) is much enjoying rather that "ur HEART over powers u"… he!he! wat i mean take some sports and divert ur stress and ur heartaches into something that is beneficial to ur mind and ur body! go! and try my shuttlecock!

now dat i’m depress and broke… u can see me hanging out a lot and doing my fav. stuffs to ease d pain… gimmicks and chill outs! beer and tequilla pati yosi kabarkada ko na!(displacement, sour graping, projection, bargaining, oral fixated, etc.) just to stay alive and happy outside… but in reality… i’m not… give me morphin… ds make my day so happy… tranquil and peace… no bustling please!!!

life is a bit morbid…1st u will enjoy d company… u’ll enjoy d happiness u share with that person… stay all night and think that life is so beautiful with him… but illusion always end… wen reality comes along in no time! it will make your life so miserable and in pain… cant sleep.. cant communicate… can’t think of the right words to say… the hardest part of it is that you dnt know where to go and what emotions you need to portray to keep the heartaches… i’m down and broke… dnt know when this will last… dnt know wer to hide… but i need to wake up… how can i wake up if i can’t sleep???… how can i explain if i dnt know what’s the real score is???… see it’s difficult… cnt think of something ryt now… coz i’m preoccupied with him…